Walk a Day in My Shoes...

(Warning...  soapbox rant ahead)

I'm feeling hurt and frustrated, almost even angry this evening after receiving a message from someone that I am so "negative" and not being thankful for what I do have and it's demonstrated by what I post on Facebook.  So, I went back through the entire month of August and re-read my posts....  all 61 of them (wow I post a lot LOL).  Of those, there were 4 that I might consider negative (i.e. today's post about disability) and 2 that were prayer requests.  If those 6 posts upset you or led you to believe that I'm not grateful for what I do have...  I'm sorry!

I guess it leads me to ask a few things....

•  Have you ever watched your husband try to run around or play with the kids and end up in an absence seizure and unresponsive for minutes at a time...  just for trying to be a Dad?
•  Have you ever had to drain your bank account at the 11th hour just so you'd have enough cash to get you through to the next paycheck, knowing that overnight something would clear and leave it in the red?
•  Have you ever not filled a prescription that you desperately needed so that you can pay the athletic fee your child needs to participate in a sport that he/she loves?
•  Have you ever gone to church, gatherings, etc. that were meant for couples over and over alone because your loved one is recovering from a bad seizure the day before?
•  Have you ever not been able to drive to your child's sporting even that he/she loves because you can't afford the gas money?
•  Have you ever watched your child be the patient during a full code in a hospital room?  (and contrary to the belief of a few I do NOT enjoy it!)
•  Have you ever put off appointment after appointment thinking it would fit into the next check's budget?
•  Have you ever held your spouse as he/she cried at night because "this isn't how it's supposed to be...  I'm supposed to be able to work and support you"

I could go on and on....  this is only a list of a FEW of the things that I HAVE done over and over again over the last few years (and some even the last few days!).  But I do still wake up and give thanks for the food on our table, the roof over our heads, and every breath that we take!  And I do still give thanks that I have my husband by my side.  I love my family more than anything and I will keep pushing forward each and every day, come what may!

So unless you've walked a day in my shoes...  please don't judge me for having a bad day.

OK...  off my soapbox now.





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